Countdown, Count-up.. When Will My Life Begin?

23 days since I applied, 21 days since my phone interview for the Disney College Program.

Not only has this been an exciting adventure for me, but it's been a very EMOTIONAL adventure.
Let's see where do I begin..
How about the fact that I wasn't even going to do the program?
When I first applied to Loras, I knew I wanted to travel abroad, England England England is calling my name.
But as you can see that didn't happen. (Wah Wah Wahhhhh)

But now, I am journeying for another love of mine and that's Disney.
I have probably known I wanted to work for Disney, since I found out that my cousin and his now wife, worked at Disney Land when I was a freshman in High School. Ever since, I swear. Disney. My Life. I Need. It. Now.

So, I started my journey then with applying to the Disney College Program, and finding out what the process was, and I met a ton of new people that I could literally call my second family and home. I have no idea what I would do without them, they are my everything.

But I digress, but to me ranting about waiting, and how I thought I would be ok with it, but I really am not.
I'm an emotional wreck. I'm not sleeping, I've been crying for the past week, I can't focus on school. I just need this.. I really do need this. When people ask me.. so have you heard back from Disney?! Yes.. I have.. Yes I'm going. YOU HAPPY?! Because I'm certainly not.. I won't be until I get my email...

I need that email..
I don't want to wait another weeek..
I can't..
I'm not that emotionally stable...